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Early late, or late early, depending on measured versus perceived daytime and the general mood related to that: Back inside. A bit dizzy, a bit covered by summer, a bit dusty and more than just a bit tired. Watching a tremendously wide, quiet sky slowly fade into soft darkness. Music from the pub is a bit louder today, rough voices involved into ongoing discussions outside, one tries hard to not get mentally entangled all too much. Flipping through pages, collecting liner notes, dashes and all the words to be written in between the lines, and shaping them into a story or a fairytale or maybe a poem, whatever seems most appropriate between today and tomorrow. Have a calm night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #summer moves on
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A lot later, new dusk ending an old day and mind's getting lost to the idea of how perception changes by measuring time spent on different things in minutes not hours. Same thing, from a rational angle, but oh the effect of larger numbers. And now for adding up that part of these that was lost in context switches, mental reconfiguration, initialization and finalization of various appointments. Facts gained. Arguments started, ongoing. Not so conclusions, yet. Yawning at the quiet sky and the darkening city. A few chords from night and dreams. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #where we are we are
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10pm and a little further for today. Todays minutes wrapped up, tomorrows prepared, mentally at least a bit on track and hoping for enough inner silence to keep the imposter from interfering with things just at the wrong time. Somewhere in between hope and experiences. Taking a deep breath, watching the neighbourhood tumble through evening chores, some routines, some late dinner, some candles and a lot of open ends. But not for tonight. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #sleep as an option
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(The day the evening and a plethora of different cloud shapes collected today, all of them having in common an utter talent to completely hide the sky and the universe behind. A few drops of water still finding ways down the leaves of the trees, making the self sync with a confusing, irregular rhythm that still in a way feels organic and soothing. A fabric for imaginary paintings, mentally, physically. Have a soft night wherever you are.) #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #half awake half asleep
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Rückkehr durch Wetter. Regen wird stärker. Unruhige Spiegelbilder auf nassem Stein, Lichter treibem vorüber gen Fluss. Schon wieder Abend, sich selbst überholt, irgendwo, außer Atem außer Ruh. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #summer moves on
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Finally, back and reattaching. Appartment cooled down a bit, clouds leaving at least a little glimpse of late sun just before the day comes to a close. Music in the pub, toned down chatter on the balcony nearby, a bus waiting for travellers a mind waiting for dreams. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #late sundays
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Calming down. Breathing at the back door again. Briefly revisiting the week, slightly out of sync with time and date and trying not to bother too much while the village slowly drifts into night. Bats rushing through open space between the trees and the lake. Couple of cars passing by in far distance, merely the idea of an engine sound than actually something to be heard it seems. Everything else already wrapped in late dusk silence and somehow this is really hard to resist. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #the village and the hills #evening deviations #summer moves on
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Later that evening, familiar rooms, familiar skies, familiar heat. Mental movement on unfamiliar ground, boundaries in invisible distance. The map is not the territory. Also, this apartment's just slowly cooling down. Hours recorded, memories kept, ending up out of focus, somehow clueless, somehow overheated. Heavy breathing in the frame of an open window, the giggling and chatter of the balconies are louder again today. Have a calm night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #where we are we are
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Late evening and a bit of sunlight left. Dizzy after the weekend the day, a bit off track a bit off rhythm and feeling both content and in a strange way guilty for what is being granted. Listening, watching, breathing. Church, high-rise, traffic, pedestrians. The other city has its characteristics unique, noticeable, calming in a way. And it's always somehow pleasant to be part of that, even just for a few hours. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #elsewhere #travel #evening deviations
#outerworld #travel #elsewhere #evening deviations

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A lot later, probably. Along the hours and still kind of stuck. Bats above roofs and crossroads. Dense clouds, no wind, the day just keeps on going. Few voices, hardly any sound out there, anywhere. Concluding the weekend, keeping schedules at a distance for a bit a few more hours. In the mood to stay awake, in a desire to sleep. Not sure what will win. Have a calm night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #the heat in days #evening deviations
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Abendbeschäftigung: Schattenlinien beobachten, die langsam über Wände ziehen. Jalousien stauen die Wärme so, dass man sie nicht berühren mag in der Angst, danach könnte die Glut direkt und ungehemmt über Boden und Körper fluten. Irgendjemand in der Nachbarschaft lenkt sich mit lauter Schlagermusik ab und die Wirklichkeit dicht geschlossener Fenster lässt nur unsicher den tatsächlichen Geräuschpegel erahnen. Aber vielleicht muss ein bisschen Spaß tatsächlich sein (und es wird fordernd, entsprechende Textzeilen wieder loszuwerden). #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #the heat in days
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Immer noch unterwegs. Asphalt, Beton, altehrwürdige Bauten. Feuerwehrschlauch. Feinster Nebel. Schwerer Blütenduft. Inspiriert. Überreizt. Müdigkeit übergangen? Eine dunkle Ahnung von warmen Bussen, einer Nacht ohne Schlaf. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations
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Onward into this night, finally. Having spent most of the hours inside and not really enjoyed the few moments elsewhere, this again feels like one odd day again, slightly without aim or purpose and with a much more limited set of images, a much more limited vocabulary. Stories of overthinking, input management, various kinds of noises and the slowness of certain weather. Crafting random dreams, just to let them grow and go and maybe return after dusk. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #the late hours #evening deviations #summer moves on
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Kurze administrative Umwege, Hinterhofblumen und ein Schmetterling und das Gehirn im Leerlauf übersetzt und assoziiert und malt Bilder in stickigwarme Küchenluft und die Fliege an der Wand lässt einen kurz schaudern. Filme ohne Handlung. Körnig und rauh. Betriebsmodus etwas abseits der Komfortzone. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #summer moves on
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Different evening to still follow different days, out of rhythm out of tune and both lost for words and all over the place. Some tasks started, very few finished. Judging oneself by efficiency and productivity once more, failing to come up with a satisfactory wrap-up. Remembering earlier summers, journeys to distant cities, rooftop and skylines and the sun and the twilight, the meadow of unknown parks. At this time, garden river park even backyard feel too far to really get there. Most likely tomorrow. Have a calm night once it's here, everyone, wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #summer moves on #evening deviations
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Quite a bit later, somewhere amidst a week and not really relating to either hour or day. Detached, a little more than usual. Restless, too, between contradictory poles and not sure which things feel least bad when not done. Watching sunset again. And considering sleep. Stories of options and hopes. Have a soft night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #half awake half asleep
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Synchronisation: Zufallszahlen, grob gerasterte Bilder, schallendes Gelächter aus dem Hof. Sonne auf der anderen Seite des Hauses. Ein Telefon, ebenfalls laut, die wahrnehmbare Seite eines fordernden Gesprächs. Weghören. Geschirr sortieren. Ein wenig Durcheinander, überall. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #summer moves on
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Finally and a lot later: Concluding the day by admiring its late colours. Listening to the neighbourhood again, the conversations on terraces and balconies, the sound of dishes and glasses here and there, looking at ones own limitations and still enjoying these surroundings. Monday went by, todays task list to quite some extent turned tomorrows task list, but maybe there's a moment of rest in between ends and beginning. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #summer moves on
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Later, somehow. Outside warmth replaced with inside warmth, little has changed asides this. A long day, still there's a remainder of sunlight floating above the horizon and the river, and the neighbours seem to care little about this weekend coming to a close. Windows opened wide, here and there. Not that this does amount to some real effect but at least it makes the neighbourhood feel closer, more vivid, more present and does its own share of distraction that's anything but unwelcome. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #summer moves on
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Still out there, returning. Fireworks across the river. Velvet darkness. Just slowly cooling down, feeling concrete and stone facades release all the heat grabbed from the day and its sun. Not asleep yet but also just partially awake, and maybe already dreaming. Have a soft night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #half awake half asleep
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Draußen. Immer noch vor der Dämmerung, immer noch viel zu warm. Andere Namen, andere Geschichten, alt wie neu. Sichelmond über den Bäumen. Ein leiser Fluss. Wieder hier, also. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations
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Different day same place, or the other way 'round. Some more long evenings. Sound of music and chatter, louder than usual and pretty much nearby. The feeling the vicinity of trees and bushes and the creek, present as alway but a bit weaker than usual compared to the village celebrating this summer. Dim night sky above, the city in mind, the week and its dense schedule still very much here. Exercising awareness. For everything and oneself. Stories of mising superpowers, on repeat. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #the village and the hills #evening deviations #where we are we are
#outerworld #the village and the hills #where we are we are #evening deviations

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Hours later again, weather considerations and pondering the daily worklog. It's a lot once you step back and take a conscious look but still outcome doesn't feel too much pleasing. Better luck next ... day? At least, ongoing exercises in adapting plans, or plan adapting to actual needs and the map is not the territory because the map is much more dynamic than one might like to. No reconnect for today. Everything else to fit into that evening remains local. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #where we are we are
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Into another late evening and through its twilight: Silent chords, barely heard. No singing. Sometimes there's that attempt to forcefully calm the mind to get rest needed, sometimes it's all about allowing that inner monkey to jump and wander around hoping it eventually will get tired and fall asleep, and sometimes it's just about laying back and letting go, no matter how unfamiliar it might feel. Sometimes it's about another rewind and redraft because words are different before and after writing. Unsure which kind of outcome will come from all this, today. Non-deterministic approaches to certain issues within the limits of a fuzzy world. Mental exercises, on both ends of the day. Have a soft night wherever you are. #outerworld #evening deviations #half awake half asleep
#outerworld #half awake half asleep #evening deviations

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Seemingly days and weeks and yet just hours later: An attempt to slow down but lacking real perception for the current speed or movement or position on track. Stormy evening still, windows falling shut again and again, shivering floor shivering walls and jumping at every louder noise. Tension relief. Warm tea. Artificial rain. The usual procedures. While keeping on running circles, in a way. Have a calm night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #the late hours
#outerworld #concrete city #the late hours #evening deviations

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Der Abend und nochmal später Ortswechsel. Gassen voller Touristen. Nasskalte Springbrunnen, Duftkeulen aus den Türen bunter Geschäfte, kein Mangel an Signalen jeder Form. Leerer Aufzug. Überklebtes Bedienfeld. Wartezimmer, mechanisches Surren. Hochfrequent. Durchdringend. Temporärer Rückzug ins Innerste. #outerworld #evening deviations #concrete city
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Finally and somewhat later, fireworks in the distance, heavy clouds, dark trees waving under heavy breezes, neighbours over there stuck in their evening routines. Pub dedicated to some sort of festivity tonight. Young people, formally dressed, talking, smoking, drinking on the sidewalk in front of the entrance, music already reaching the point of minor chords sneaking into melody lines. Writing stories of these weeks and what makes them matter, while days are still getting longer. Summertime imaginations. On repeat. Have a soft night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #slow images
#outerworld #concrete city #slow images #evening deviations

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(Terrasse und andere Nachbarschaft. Bier aus kleinen Brauereien, sehr viel lokaler wird es nicht. Esoterische Betriebssysteme. Und ein immer heftiger singender, rüttelnder Sturm über den Dächern. ) #outerworld #evening deviations #concrete city
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Hours later, at this end of the week once more, cautiously relieved, considerably tired. Watching soft darkness very gently embrace a day that didn't feel like being really bright. Making the mind let go of the earlier tasks, but as a conscious, demanding effort. Cat sleeping on the couch, a moth dancing through dim artificial light, appartments beyond the backyards mostly quiet, and just very few sounds echoing inside that colourless concrete enclosure. Watching. Listening. Not processing much at the moment. Powering down. Slowly. Have a decent night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #early weekend stills
#outerworld #concrete city #early weekend stills #evening deviations

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Very much later, and always hanging in between things. Other kinds of preparations done, experiencing the difference between feeling stable on a technical level but way less so in matters of communication. Too much thinking before too much talking and the introvert trying to find its place in a very much interaction-based process. Also: Windowsill, evening breath, even following a couple of sunny hours these days feel way colder than expected but at least this way heat's one factor to be ruled out when talking lack of rest. Sleep safe everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #stories of codes and constellations
#outerworld #concrete city #stories of codes and constellations #evening deviations

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Späterer Nachmittag, und die Erfahrung von schrumpfendem Nahbereich. Schmale Gänge. Voll beladene Wägen, silbrige Käfige, an denen müde, mürrisch wirkende Menschen aus dem anderen Viertel schieben. Am Eingang verkauft ein junger, ebenso müde wirkender Mann die aktuelle Straßenzeitung und der Wechsel zwischen Hitze und Kälte bleibt nicht ohne Wirkung. Zumindest wird der Zoo eigener innerer Monologe übertönt. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #close encounters
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Finally, concluding the evening and there's a certain kind of sound to still prevail: A crowd, slightly annoyed it seems. Bass drum rhythms, noises from a dark car near the crossroads, loud conversations in an empty appartment across the street and it's been a while for people to move furniture in and out, over there. Attention tied to just particular slices of current reality, for watching the evening, the new night in its entirety would be too overwhelming in any way. Stories of rest and how to get there. Sleep tight everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #where we are we are
#outerworld #concrete city #where we are we are #evening deviations

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Evening deviations. The neighbourhood outside, but like a movie just flowing by, without leaving many impressions or moods. Too: Certain strategies against certain tensions. Looping through the script once again, fast, briefly. Edges not found so far are sure to pop up by tomorrow. They always do. Most important terms memorized, most important concepts understood, the challenges of staying calm in course of explanations. And the hope for some rest in between now and then. Sleep safe everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #where we are we are
#outerworld #concrete city #where we are we are #evening deviations

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Many hours later again. Mondays in a different flow grow a different kind of evening mood, that feeling of being all over the place without having accomplished anything of relevance. There's that imposter giggling in its corner, there's a cat sleeping on a couch paying no attention to anything, there are a few chords played on dusty keys, the room could do with a candle but there's no motivation to light one, right now. The soothing effect of dusk and its mild tones. Have a soft night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #where we do what we do
#outerworld #concrete city #where we do what we do #evening deviations

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And late rituals. Sunday winding down. Chatter of teenagers in the street, the waiting near the bus stop, the hanging out in front of the pub and there's a bunch of chords in the air but no voice and mind's slow on recognising old classics. Air's dense and soft, late spring makes breathing harder than desirable, and new morning just an arms length from here. About finding sleep and sticking to it. For better or worse. Have a calm night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #late sundays
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Frühe Sonntagabendroutinen. Und heißer Tee. Ein wenig Erleichterung in Tagen unter Spannung. Schwalbenkreise hoch in unerwartet heller, warmer Sonne. Gegenüber Rückkehr, Ankunft, Zusammenkunft. Und Gespräche. Und noch keine Musik, auch wenn die Stunde Klänge bräuchte. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #late sundays
#outerworld #concrete city #late sundays #evening deviations

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Hours later, near an open living room window. Gazing at the evening sky the somewhat dark facades the few lit windows. Breathing the early night air, the scent of concrete and trees and soil and meadows and a hint of the river nearby. Letting all senses sink into that moment, as the morning and day seem already and once more far from here. Wrapping up. Shelving. Yawning. Not asking the model for rest as some answers would be confusing to anyone including oneself. Sleep safe everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #stories of sleepy souls and restless minds
#outerworld #concrete city #stories of sleepy souls and restless minds #evening deviations

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(Man ertappt sich dabei, an alten Dingen festzuhalten. Weil man nicht konsumieren will, aus viel zu vielen Gründen. Weil Umgewöhnungen und Wechsel immer Kraft kosten, die man dafür nicht geben mag. Weil sie funktionieren, mit etwas gutem Zuspruch und gelegentlich Klebeband und Draht. Und irgendwie weil sie, auch als Dinge, nah sind, weil die Summe aus Gebrauchswert und Nostalgiewert dann doch konstant hoch, nie zu ersetzen ist.) #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #stories of tools and memories
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Once again later. Trying to habitualize resting on hard floor for a few breaths every day, to not just see but also feel the world around, to feel parts of the physical self that went unfelt and ended up stuck in uncomfortable postures during the wake hours. Not sure this makes sense but at least it's worth an attempt. Also, trying to loosen parts of the mental self stuck in similar loops. Even more challenging for sure. Average-case estimations, some notes some ideas and a rough draft and then flushing ones own caches and letting tonight pass. Sleep safe everyone wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #where we are we are
#outerworld #concrete city #where we are we are #evening deviations

Marga Xeyat Ⓐ hat dies geteilt.

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Evening and slowly reconnecting the self to the neighbourhood. Skies still grey, no rain, and the music hints at people remaining in weekend mode for a few more hours. Washing off the past days, emptying the glass, straightening the rooms to not stumble across leftovers tomorrow. There's always sleep to hope for, even on the border of weeks. Have a soft night wherever you are. #outerworld #concrete city #evening deviations #the late hours
#outerworld #concrete city #the late hours #evening deviations

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